34 WEEKS

taking it's toll.

I don't normally ever get to the point of *wanting* it to all be over. Not even @ the end. I know it's best for baby to stay put as long as possible & I know how different things will be once baby is here....so I never get that impatient feeling or want to rush the pregnancy.

But this week...I feel different.

I think it started when I made a mistake & thought I was a week farther than I really was. I had a momentary shock of panic to think I only had 6 weeks left, but really I have 7. I was feeling a bit down over some other unrelated matters & began thinking what I nice & lovely distraction it would be to have baby now. kwim?

Maybe I will feel different tomorrow. I usually feel different *tomorrow*. kwim?

Or I mean maybe *registering* will cheer me up. It's like shopping except you don't spend any $$$$. lol

I'd like to *make* baby something too, a nice crochet blanket or something but for whatever reason, I'm just *not* motivated for that either.

I'm disappointed in myself for being so INactive this pg. I wanted this to be everything I wanted it to be. kwim? It's prolly the last, no specific reason why, just how I feel. SO I wanted it to be the best pg ever. But I allowed it to get away from me.

I just feel like a giant bump on a log. It's not just being pg...it's being INactive. I'm certain this is the *biggest* I've ever been...I can *see* it, I can *feel* it & it's just blah!

This might be the pg I *don't* lose any weight afterwards......kwim?

Then again, like I said, I might feel better tomorrow.

Guess it was nothing...

So yesterday I was afraid my water had broke...or something.
No need to go into TMI? OR maybe I can, it's my blog anyway, right?

So went to the restroom & when I was finished there was another continuous *gush*...weird.
The thing is I've never experienced my water breaking before labor. W/ S I was already @ the hospital near the end & it broke on a*push*.

W/ L, the midwife broke it for me as I was already 9.5 cm dilated & L was born soon after. kwim?

So I was quite perplexed...& I do not normally have incontinence issues during my pregnancies.

So I just lay low & kept up the water intake.
Things seem fine today.
Guess I just need to chalk it up to one of those weird pg things/quirks.

One of those things that makes you go hhhmmm? kwim?

When did I become so sensitive?

There has been some extended family drama recently & I just can't believe how it has affected me!!!

I was so upset Monday over some shocking news & I could feel my entire body physically tensing up & my stomach start cramping. Well by Tuesday, I was having some pretty strong cramping & braxton hicks all day! I stayed laying down, upped my magnesium & water intake.

It's so discouraging though how even though I didn't appear to be upset & felt I had vented enough to feel ok about the situation, it was still obviously affecting me.

It was almost scary...but everything seems fine now! :-)

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